ouch

My excema is quite bad - not Dennis Potter level but I'm in a fair bit of pain as it's in an embarassing sort of area you don't mention in public blog posts...  I have to work though, no choice about that but sitting down is painful. Sleep is bad also, so I'm tired; the creams given to me last time don't really work for bad cases, the steroidal cream which is really effective ran out ages ago; and cleared up the last lot.

 And the first I can get a doctors appointment is the 20th! AARGH! I need to switch doctors to a practice that can see me quicker than 2-3 weeks - and this is the central surgery in the new centre, not just some surgery in the sticks....crap, utter crap.

In the meantime....scratch scratch ouch. Well trying not to scratch. Sigh.

ouch

My excema is quite bad - not Dennis Potter level but I'm in a fair bit of pain as it's in an embarassing sort of area you don't mention in public blog posts...  I have to work though, no choice about that but sitting down is painful. Sleep is bad also, so I'm tired; the creams given to me last time don't really work for bad cases, the steroidal cream which is really effective ran out ages ago; and cleared up the last lot.

 And the first I can get a doctors appointment is the 20th! AARGH! I need to switch doctors to a practice that can see me quicker than 2-3 weeks - and this is the central surgery in the new centre, not just some surgery in the sticks....crap, utter crap.

In the meantime....scratch scratch ouch. Well trying not to scratch. Sigh.

ouch

My excema is quite bad - not Dennis Potter level but I'm in a fair bit of pain as it's in an embarassing sort of area you don't mention in public blog posts...  I have to work though, no choice about that but sitting down is painful. Sleep is bad also, so I'm tired; the creams given to me last time don't really work for bad cases, the steroidal cream which is really effective ran out ages ago; and cleared up the last lot.

 And the first I can get a doctors appointment is the 20th! AARGH! I need to switch doctors to a practice that can see me quicker than 2-3 weeks - and this is the central surgery in the new centre, not just some surgery in the sticks....crap, utter crap.

In the meantime....scratch scratch ouch. Well trying not to scratch. Sigh.

aaargh

So I got to the ATM, withdrawal denied - check the amount, totally OD. Looks like the money I'm owed for last week (and apparently other weeks according to the company who does my invoices) hasn't been paid, and had to just do a expensive cash withdrawal from my credit card just to be able to eat for the next few days.

I'm approaching stress meltdown, with the pain from the excema swelling/irritation I feel like bursting into tears at any point.

But I have to keep going, cos I need the money - money i'm apparently not being paid and people are keeping their grubby fucking mits on in their bank accounts earning them interest while I go broke and stressed. AAAARGH.

At this rate I won't have any money for next week, and will have to cancel money-generating (allegedly) work cos I can't afford to buy the season ticket, or any ticket. Oh the irony...

aaargh

So I got to the ATM, withdrawal denied - check the amount, totally OD. Looks like the money I'm owed for last week (and apparently other weeks according to the company who does my invoices) hasn't been paid, and had to just do a expensive cash withdrawal from my credit card just to be able to eat for the next few days.

I'm approaching stress meltdown, with the pain from the excema swelling/irritation I feel like bursting into tears at any point.

But I have to keep going, cos I need the money - money i'm apparently not being paid and people are keeping their grubby fucking mits on in their bank accounts earning them interest while I go broke and stressed. AAAARGH.

At this rate I won't have any money for next week, and will have to cancel money-generating (allegedly) work cos I can't afford to buy the season ticket, or any ticket. Oh the irony...

aaargh

So I got to the ATM, withdrawal denied - check the amount, totally OD. Looks like the money I'm owed for last week (and apparently other weeks according to the company who does my invoices) hasn't been paid, and had to just do a expensive cash withdrawal from my credit card just to be able to eat for the next few days.

I'm approaching stress meltdown, with the pain from the excema swelling/irritation I feel like bursting into tears at any point.

But I have to keep going, cos I need the money - money i'm apparently not being paid and people are keeping their grubby fucking mits on in their bank accounts earning them interest while I go broke and stressed. AAAARGH.

At this rate I won't have any money for next week, and will have to cancel money-generating (allegedly) work cos I can't afford to buy the season ticket, or any ticket. Oh the irony...

Money:update

I'm sure all the perm people are now going say 'I told you so' - these are the perils of freelancing....
Turns out that the fault was with the agencies - one sat on some invoices that needed resending/were wrong since SEPTEMBER and early October - 2 1/2 weeks work - that won't be paid for a week. :-(

The other agency hadn't sent the funds over - so for last week I should be paid on Monday - I sincerely hope they are quicker that 2 weeks in future.

So no wonder I'm in serious debt; with nearly a month of work that should have been paid, hasn't been paid....!

So this means I have a a miserable weekend to look forward to where I cannot spend a single penny, unless I can use my credit card.  *Sigh*

And everytime I phone the bank they treat me like some kind of debtor scum...I explain the situation and they just don't want to know. Unhelpful fuckers - still tried to sell me some 'plus' account that costs more, though.

Money:update

I'm sure all the perm people are now going say 'I told you so' - these are the perils of freelancing....
Turns out that the fault was with the agencies - one sat on some invoices that needed resending/were wrong since SEPTEMBER and early October - 2 1/2 weeks work - that won't be paid for a week. :-(

The other agency hadn't sent the funds over - so for last week I should be paid on Monday - I sincerely hope they are quicker that 2 weeks in future.

So no wonder I'm in serious debt; with nearly a month of work that should have been paid, hasn't been paid....!

So this means I have a a miserable weekend to look forward to where I cannot spend a single penny, unless I can use my credit card.  *Sigh*

And everytime I phone the bank they treat me like some kind of debtor scum...I explain the situation and they just don't want to know. Unhelpful fuckers - still tried to sell me some 'plus' account that costs more, though.

Money:update

I'm sure all the perm people are now going say 'I told you so' - these are the perils of freelancing....
Turns out that the fault was with the agencies - one sat on some invoices that needed resending/were wrong since SEPTEMBER and early October - 2 1/2 weeks work - that won't be paid for a week. :-(

The other agency hadn't sent the funds over - so for last week I should be paid on Monday - I sincerely hope they are quicker that 2 weeks in future.

So no wonder I'm in serious debt; with nearly a month of work that should have been paid, hasn't been paid....!

So this means I have a a miserable weekend to look forward to where I cannot spend a single penny, unless I can use my credit card.  *Sigh*

And everytime I phone the bank they treat me like some kind of debtor scum...I explain the situation and they just don't want to know. Unhelpful fuckers - still tried to sell me some 'plus' account that costs more, though.

Sealed in Aspic

Would explain a lot, although looking at the line of questioning I do wonder if a lot of gay men would come out with mild Aspergers or midly autistic as standard? Certainly social disassociation, hatred of sports and/or touching, obsession and talking to loudly and manicly all sounds like quite a few people I know...(yes I know it's more than that, but I find the gay/talent/autistic or socially or mentally dysfunctional axis very interesting, it's like to be queer in other ways than sexually also? Not saying homsexuality is a mental disorder - far from it, but I wonder if there are links between genius, creativity, alternative sexualities, and mental 'disorders' - I see them as not that, it's kind of like a gift/curse scenario - and what's normal anyway?).

I mean look at the example of Daniel Tammet?

Hey ho I'm an eccentric and proud of it anyways!

http://www.rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php

Your Aspie score: 144 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 79 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie

Sealed in Aspic

Would explain a lot, although looking at the line of questioning I do wonder if a lot of gay men would come out with mild Aspergers or midly autistic as standard? Certainly social disassociation, hatred of sports and/or touching, obsession and talking to loudly and manicly all sounds like quite a few people I know...(yes I know it's more than that, but I find the gay/talent/autistic or socially or mentally dysfunctional axis very interesting, it's like to be queer in other ways than sexually also? Not saying homsexuality is a mental disorder - far from it, but I wonder if there are links between genius, creativity, alternative sexualities, and mental 'disorders' - I see them as not that, it's kind of like a gift/curse scenario - and what's normal anyway?).

I mean look at the example of Daniel Tammet?

Hey ho I'm an eccentric and proud of it anyways!

http://www.rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php

Your Aspie score: 144 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 79 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie

Sealed in Aspic

Would explain a lot, although looking at the line of questioning I do wonder if a lot of gay men would come out with mild Aspergers or midly autistic as standard? Certainly social disassociation, hatred of sports and/or touching, obsession and talking to loudly and manicly all sounds like quite a few people I know...(yes I know it's more than that, but I find the gay/talent/autistic or socially or mentally dysfunctional axis very interesting, it's like to be queer in other ways than sexually also? Not saying homsexuality is a mental disorder - far from it, but I wonder if there are links between genius, creativity, alternative sexualities, and mental 'disorders' - I see them as not that, it's kind of like a gift/curse scenario - and what's normal anyway?).

I mean look at the example of Daniel Tammet?

Hey ho I'm an eccentric and proud of it anyways!

http://www.rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php

Your Aspie score: 144 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 79 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie