(no subject)

i was dressed for success
but success it never comes
and i'm the only one who laughs
at your jokes when they are so bad
and your jokes are always bad
but they're not as bad as this

come join us in a prayer
we'll be waiting waiting where
everything's ending here

and all the sterile striking it defends
an empty dock you cast away
and rain upon your forehead
where the mist's for hire if it's just too clear
let's spend our last quarterstance randomly
go down to the outlet once again

how I'd forgotten...heard a slow cover of Pavement's 'Here' by LocalH from Puritan Blister and brought it all back and me scurrying off to listen again to the original - reminders of depression; the hope this song gave me; changing times - moving to London to stay with John's wife (long story ;-) and things getting more serious with John...a definite time in late 1999.

(no subject)

i was dressed for success
but success it never comes
and i'm the only one who laughs
at your jokes when they are so bad
and your jokes are always bad
but they're not as bad as this

come join us in a prayer
we'll be waiting waiting where
everything's ending here

and all the sterile striking it defends
an empty dock you cast away
and rain upon your forehead
where the mist's for hire if it's just too clear
let's spend our last quarterstance randomly
go down to the outlet once again

how I'd forgotten...heard a slow cover of Pavement's 'Here' by LocalH from Puritan Blister and brought it all back and me scurrying off to listen again to the original - reminders of depression; the hope this song gave me; changing times - moving to London to stay with John's wife (long story ;-) and things getting more serious with John...a definite time in late 1999.

(no subject)

i was dressed for success
but success it never comes
and i'm the only one who laughs
at your jokes when they are so bad
and your jokes are always bad
but they're not as bad as this

come join us in a prayer
we'll be waiting waiting where
everything's ending here

and all the sterile striking it defends
an empty dock you cast away
and rain upon your forehead
where the mist's for hire if it's just too clear
let's spend our last quarterstance randomly
go down to the outlet once again

how I'd forgotten...heard a slow cover of Pavement's 'Here' by LocalH from Puritan Blister and brought it all back and me scurrying off to listen again to the original - reminders of depression; the hope this song gave me; changing times - moving to London to stay with John's wife (long story ;-) and things getting more serious with John...a definite time in late 1999.

(no subject)

This is on order, so is the book...:-D

Watch yer eardrums...weird music ahead!

(no subject)

This is on order, so is the book...:-D

Watch yer eardrums...weird music ahead!

(no subject)

This is on order, so is the book...:-D

Watch yer eardrums...weird music ahead!

I'm so SAD

It's a cold, dark grey day in London and I'm starting to wonder if my seasonal depression needs treatment or I should move to a warmer clime...thing is it's never been as bad as this but after a very unusually warm and good summer the winter has hit hard here, and my sleep patterns are all over the place. I literally start hibernating (the bear connection is much deeper than sexual preference it seems) and oversleeping - the cultural thing I've faced since school is that 'you're lazy' or 'can't be bothered' - which is partly true due to the depression but such seasonal/serotonin based fluctuations and oversleeping are never treat as serious.

That said the doctors only offer you drugs, and that I don't need.

And certainly it isn't as serious as compared to friends who are on various medications; it's mainly annoying and tiring rather than life-destroying (although it had more ramifications when I had permanent employment) but their experience puts me off going that route.

I'm so SAD

It's a cold, dark grey day in London and I'm starting to wonder if my seasonal depression needs treatment or I should move to a warmer clime...thing is it's never been as bad as this but after a very unusually warm and good summer the winter has hit hard here, and my sleep patterns are all over the place. I literally start hibernating (the bear connection is much deeper than sexual preference it seems) and oversleeping - the cultural thing I've faced since school is that 'you're lazy' or 'can't be bothered' - which is partly true due to the depression but such seasonal/serotonin based fluctuations and oversleeping are never treat as serious.

That said the doctors only offer you drugs, and that I don't need.

And certainly it isn't as serious as compared to friends who are on various medications; it's mainly annoying and tiring rather than life-destroying (although it had more ramifications when I had permanent employment) but their experience puts me off going that route.

I'm so SAD

It's a cold, dark grey day in London and I'm starting to wonder if my seasonal depression needs treatment or I should move to a warmer clime...thing is it's never been as bad as this but after a very unusually warm and good summer the winter has hit hard here, and my sleep patterns are all over the place. I literally start hibernating (the bear connection is much deeper than sexual preference it seems) and oversleeping - the cultural thing I've faced since school is that 'you're lazy' or 'can't be bothered' - which is partly true due to the depression but such seasonal/serotonin based fluctuations and oversleeping are never treat as serious.

That said the doctors only offer you drugs, and that I don't need.

And certainly it isn't as serious as compared to friends who are on various medications; it's mainly annoying and tiring rather than life-destroying (although it had more ramifications when I had permanent employment) but their experience puts me off going that route.