A cheery wave from a stranded freelancer

[fingertrouble]

Lying in the dark next to John, who's sleeping, listening to the rain, staring at the streetlight patterns on the wall. Thinking.

7 weeks without work and having done (well still am in) the depression phase I am really starting to panic.

I can't see myself still being here* by the end of 2009.

*London I mean, not comment whoring going to kill myself WAHMBULANCE level, but yeah, tis supremely, intensely and horrifically shit.

John has some work I can do but it's short term, desperately thinking of what else I can do and am already scaling back everything (if it wasn't for John I'd not go out at all, no way I can pay for anything other than a drink which to a proud man like me is depressing).

Bah. Not that I expect anyone to care - I've learned that on the Internet everyone can hear you scream, but only responds if they either want to shag you or you don't freak them out too much - one of the reasons I keep most of this stuff off LJ and don't post very much.

To quote Gnarls Barkley - "but who cares?"

Comments

[zbear20.livejournal.com]

I care

[timbearcub.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[zbear20.livejournal.com]

That doesn't mean I don't want to shag you too, but if the choice was meeting you and not shagging or not meeting you at all, I'd choose meeting you.

[timbearcub.livejournal.com]

Ahh I'm not averse to offers of shags, either ;-)

[tga.livejournal.com]

Well, there are some friends out there that do care mate and I am sure that something will come along work wise for you. I know it's tough times out there but surely something must turn up soon and hopefuly you won't have to leave London or anything like that.

I am sure I will see you soon as we have already met and we know we are not going to shag or anything like that! :-)

[timbearcub.livejournal.com]

True on the shagging front...dunno when we'll meet next cos I'm doing a total freeze on going out other than with John. I can't afford it...even stopping drinking at home. :-o

I hope so...just it's getting to the point I'm wondering about bar jobs and stuff...not so great at the public service though :-(

I wonder if you can get post-room work on the weekends?

[kodanuki.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean so in a way you're not alone...

[gorkabear.livejournal.com]

I care too

[timbearcub.livejournal.com]

Thanks...damn this turned out to be like a comment whoring thread...wasn't my intention...

[gorkabear.livejournal.com]

Hey, sometimes this is more than just anonymous. I've been in your situation and it's hard to bear.

Maybe you need a change. Things will align soon :)

[why-a-duck.livejournal.com]

Add me to the care train. Like it or not, we like you.

[timbearcub.livejournal.com]

damn. Must try harder.

[akil.livejournal.com]

I care, too ... even if I'm 6000 miles away and can't do much to help. :)

[timbearcub.livejournal.com]

thanks anyway :-) It's appreciated.