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fingertrouble) wrote2006-05-22 04:04 pm
fingertrouble) wrote2006-05-22 04:04 pm
Friends bring you down...
I feel a lot better after chatting to a friend of mine til 5:30 in the morning on Sunday; he helped talk me down from the whole funk I'd gotten myself into, and see some perspective.
I do need to do some talking, it's going to be difficult but at the risk of laying my shit during someone else's drama it's something I have to cope with too - I can't keep making compromises, or pretending to feel one way when I'm not. It's not productive, even if it's for a good 'white knight' sort of reason, because at some point I have to lay down my cards too?
Otherwise it's not much of a relationship if I'm self-censoring, however 'valiant' or gallant or 'good' the reason.
Other friends that helped me feel better were the americans (yes ALL of them, thanks![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
why_a_duck) well actually two, my good friends Bob and Marty from Detroit...should've taken my camera (natch) but we went to Somerset House to see the Courtauld and other exhibitions there, like the Hermitage Rooms...really nice. Very recommended. Despite the shitty rainy-blustery weather atm.
Had a good meal at Le cafe du jardin (after some, err, 'rest time' at the hotel, funny not much resting seem to happen :-D) and stayed over at their hotel. Nice time was had by all...hopefully seeing them later in the week also.
Workwise seems to have dried up atm but since I'm still recovering from a nasty chest-infection-cough (yes it's definitely an infection, will need to go down the docs if it keeps on as any asthmatic shure kno those buggers just won't shift sometimes).
I do need to do some talking, it's going to be difficult but at the risk of laying my shit during someone else's drama it's something I have to cope with too - I can't keep making compromises, or pretending to feel one way when I'm not. It's not productive, even if it's for a good 'white knight' sort of reason, because at some point I have to lay down my cards too?
Otherwise it's not much of a relationship if I'm self-censoring, however 'valiant' or gallant or 'good' the reason.
Other friends that helped me feel better were the americans (yes ALL of them, thanks
why_a_duck) well actually two, my good friends Bob and Marty from Detroit...should've taken my camera (natch) but we went to Somerset House to see the Courtauld and other exhibitions there, like the Hermitage Rooms...really nice. Very recommended. Despite the shitty rainy-blustery weather atm.Had a good meal at Le cafe du jardin (after some, err, 'rest time' at the hotel, funny not much resting seem to happen :-D) and stayed over at their hotel. Nice time was had by all...hopefully seeing them later in the week also.
Workwise seems to have dried up atm but since I'm still recovering from a nasty chest-infection-cough (yes it's definitely an infection, will need to go down the docs if it keeps on as any asthmatic shure kno those buggers just won't shift sometimes).